Source: https://deppdive.net/exhibits/Plt371A%201.01%20to%202.29-CL20192911-051622.M4A

AH: I see somebody who is changing, always, into different versions of a person that I recognize for a brief moment, and then he slips away and he disappears. And then I get a different version of him. I get the insecure scared version of him that lashes out in a different medium every time. So if it’s Adderall j*nkie Johnny, then he’s abusive and he’s a bully and he’s a tyrant and he’s mean and he’s reactionary and he’s incendiary, and anything I do and say is calls for violence or anger. If I speak to him honestly and bluntly from the heart, I’m yelling at him. If I argue back with him, then I’m abusive. If I don’t say anything, then I am dismissive or absent or “what’s wrong” or somewhere else. If I engage with him, I’m part of the problem, I’m yelling, I’m mean. If I don’t engage with him, then I’m part of the problem. No matter what I do, I’m f**ked. Because if I look at him the wrong way, he’s the problem. If I say the wrong thing, God knows what it is, I’m the problem. I’m the problem, really? That’s the guy who’s on a bunch of f**king speed.



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